Author Archives: heidi

We pulled off at a small town in the cornfields and drove past the town to where farms sit wide apart. My mom needed to rest on the way home from treatment(a three and a half hour drive each way). … Continue reading →

We’re at the Cancer Treatment Centers of America with my mom.  Many of the people in the dining room wear scarves that frame faces that seem rounder than most. Humbled by disease, either as the sufferer, caregiver, or staff, there … Continue reading →

I dreamed an apology, one I gave to an old love for treating him as an interesting pastime rather than a human being. He was the school boy again, not the heavyset father of three. I was me today, wishing … Continue reading →

Day 10 – All I wanted to do was take a nap, wander into the bedroom, pull up the comforter and doze off. Not tired, just sleepy, in the land of being a woman once a month. I didn’t nod … Continue reading →

Day 9 – I tiptoed through a quiet house where everyone still slept at 10am when our friend came over to help with whatever we may need. She stayed until after 3pm, chopping vegetables for my mom, watching the boys … Continue reading →

Day 8 – I went grocery shopping by myself this morning. A friend came over to help my mom with whatever she may need, and also around the house. After she helped me make a grocery list by simply carrying … Continue reading →

Day 7 – I’ve deleted three opening sentences, each the beginning thought of a highlight from yesterday. Now I’m paused, fingers hovering keyboard, waiting for inspiration on how to continue. The inner voice says to make a list.   Snuggling … Continue reading →

Day 6 – I spent the morning, afternoon, and early evening in my pajamas yesterday, either lounging on the screened in back porch, or at the dining table. The day was warm, windy, bright. My kids got along all day, … Continue reading →

Two days at home and I realized I wasn’t ready to be on my own so much, so now I’m back at Heidi’s home. She thinks I should stay here until the surgical collar is discarded. I don’t know exactly … Continue reading →

Day 5 – I fell asleep easily last night, after finishing a book I’ve been reading to the boys for weeks. I woke nine hours later to a bright and beautifully clean bedroom. For several nights I’ve been waking every … Continue reading →