Author Archives: heidi

What does it feel like after you win the Olympics, drink champagne carried aloft on the arms of manic frenzy, begin to inhale deeply again, then stretch your winning body in an unfamiliar bed a thousand miles from home, still … Continue reading →

In honor of redirecting words to clearly reflect the unexplainable at times when grammar gets in the way, when I wish only for shades of meaning to wander through your mind, I commit to creating a quantity of poems equal … Continue reading →

Karen and I came back from Zion about noon yesterday, after my long chemo session on Friday afternoon. Usually by the next afternoon I feel pretty normal, but not this time. I basically slept from soon after arriving home yesterday … Continue reading →

I can see why I became so depressed when I tried to come back to my house a couple weeks ago. There are so many things to pick up or move around or clean or whatever and my body was … Continue reading →

Here’s the story: I am a poor pill taker. For many years I couldn’t get myself to swallow any pills, then I learned to take small pills, starting with the ones for my chronic low thyroid condition. Now I need … Continue reading →

I have to tell everyone what a wonderful caregiver Heidi has been, I’m prone to becoming irascible and impatient when I can’t do things my way, and she has been more than a match while still able to lovingly see … Continue reading →

If you were here with us, you would smile at his soft voice, heart-shaped face, feathered blond hair just a bit long in a cool way, too-big little red sweatshirt sleeves crumpled at his wrists, with an ease I am … Continue reading →

I woke up at 6:45 this morning, after only three hours sleep, body taut like a spring, my ears ringing from anxiety, ousted from a dream I can’t remember. I had no reason to be up, but I could not … Continue reading →

At bed time last night, the older kid said I’m always either “getting things done” or on my laptop. He has a point. Since we’ve returned to Illinois to help my mom while she does what she can figure out … Continue reading →

Back today from a trip to Zion for the second chemo in this round, then next week off and going back March 29. The Physician’s Assistant that I met with was very optimistic. He said that I looked way better … Continue reading →