Author Archives: heidi

Boys in the yard whittle sticks into arrows, sun sliding down their backs, its westward march a dusk-maker, cool-wind-shaker, lifting unbrushed curls and auburn feathers off the necks of children. Mothers watch and don’t watch, talk and fall silent, laugh … Continue reading →

My husband called to tell me he got our paper work in to the folks who are preparing our taxes. I was to gather only one bit of information about health insurance premiums, which I did. A few hours later, … Continue reading →

Moon light, night air, alone on the back porch. Near silence, nothing on my mind. Coffee, fresh baked cookies, soft couch, warm blanket. A poem, easily written, carried me deep into the joy of this moment of gentle aloneness. Though … Continue reading →

My music is life’s distant din, out here alone after dusk; traffic two streets east, a neighbor’s screen door slamming loose, the evening nothing settling warm and cool like lace on my bare arm, in March. I made coffee, strong … Continue reading →

It’s not that I didn’t believe, or maybe that is the case, not believing. Then comes a day where it matters, but not literally. A time when right now happens whether I remember to look at the sky or not. … Continue reading →

I braved running errands with both boys this afternoon. As we set out, I calmly told them I would not be answering requests or most questions, so would they please do their own thing and follow along peacefully. Between the … Continue reading →

I’m sitting on the front porch being rebelliously imperfect. Bird song, cool-warm sixty degree breeze, overcast-brilliant, spring in winter. I don’t know how to right-side just now, so I won’t. I’ll close my eyes, listen to each avian call I … Continue reading →

It’s not one moment I can pull out like a rabbit from a hat. African drums beating sunlight between matters of necessity, I’m alone in the smooth black truck I haven’t driven for weeks, hanging pandora out the window like … Continue reading →

Upstairs, two boys play Lego/pretend/great amazing battle in their pajamas. Grandpa comes over to deliver a few thing for grandma. A grand whiny tantrum erupts above. Little brother has either had enough being bossed, or simply wants his way, and … Continue reading →

Just came home from trip to Cancer Treatment Center, still feeling the effects of chemo last night. Right now my chemo schedule is: Week 1 — long infusion with two chemo meds Week 2 — short infusion with one chemo … Continue reading →